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Yom Kippur: Is There A Right Way To Do Teshuvah?
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It is considered leaning if what you are leaning on were suddenly pulled out from under you, you'd fall. Now, it's one thing to come across a halacha like this in the abstract, and to see it written in a book. But let's actually imagine what this halacha looks like in real life?
So here it is. It's 'Yom Kippur'. Al chet vidui- this prayer confessions. It's one of the most intensely personal prayers of the year. Imagine yourself, really doing this right. Imagine there you are in shul, your eyes are closed, you've been really thinking about your year, evaluating yourself very seriously, you found painful, searing mistakes in the past, tears streaming down your cheeks, as shemona esrei draws to a close with that sense of close and catharsis. "Things are going to be different going forward." You felt like for the first time in years, Yom Kippur's really been meaningful transformative. And then as you begin to take your three steps backwards, you realize, "Oh my Gosh! I've been leaning!"
You've been leaning! So what?
So now let's just try to understand. Does this mean that this whole thing doesn't count? I mean, this whole half hour, this transformation - none of it matters? You just have to do it again? How could that even be? How do you understand this?
The question I want to really pose to you is really larger than this. This is just an example, of almost an oxymoron that we call 'Hilchot Teshuvah' - laws of Teshuvah. The very term just seems entirely self-contradictory. A 'Law' is the most objective thing that you can imagine. Law is - 'we don't care what you feel, this is the law'. It doesn't really matter what's going on with your inner emotional world.
So that's Law; but Teshuvah is about the inner emotional world. There's nothing more spiritual, more personal than the process of return and repentant; of change. How could Teshuvah, of all processes within Judaism, be regulated by Law? Laws of Teshuvah - such a strange idea! But Laws of Teshuvah they are.
Here's another law. When you say Vidui, you are supposed to say it out loud. And you can ask 'why'. Who am I taking to in shemona esrei when I’m saying Vidui? I'm talking to God. Well, if God's all powerful, can't He read my thoughts?
Imagine I have these very, very deep, personal, spiritual thought - it doesn't count. God knows what I'm thinking. Why doesn't this count?
These two issues - leaning during Vidui, saying it out loud - they're just two possible examples. The whole idea of Hilchot Teshuvah Law again, sounds strange. If you open up the Rambam, Maimonides, there's a whole section of this code of Jewish Law that's devoted to Hilchot Teshuvah. What I want to do with you over this series of videos is to actually look carefully at Rambam’s Hilchot Teshuvah. I think that if we jump in and actually see what's written there, we will find that contrary to what we might have believed, there are right ways of doing Teshuvah, and wrong ways of doing it. There are pitfalls in the process of Teshuvah, they are subtle. They can actually make a process destructive - destructive for you, destructive for those around you.
Teshuvah is not just a morphosis. It's not whatever it is and wants it to be. There's a real path here, there's something to achieve, and there's a way to achieve it. If you look carefully at Hilchot Teshuvah, we'll actually discover that path. Jump in with me; let's take a look.
I want to begin by asking us to consider a question. The Legal structure of the Torah is to find by 613 commandments; there's a lot of commandments. Now, of all those commandments, I want to ask you this: do you think that there's a command to do Teshuvah? The first kind of sin is to do some sort of wrong. Is this one of the commands of the Torah, to actually go and repent for your wrong-doing? You know, on the one hand, you might argue that Teshuvah's very fundamental. It's a very important thing ;that there's got to be a command for it. On the other hand, if you think about it, there's a problem with the very notion, of their being a Mitzvah to do Teshuvah. I'll come back for that problem in a moment. Before I do, let's actually jump in and read the Rambam and see what the Rambam has to say about this.
Kol mitzvot shebetorah- All Commands in the Torah. bein laaseh bein lo taaseh; whether we are talking about a positive command or a negative comment; an imperative to do something or admonish not to do it. Im aver adam ol achat mehen, if somebody actually transgressed one of these commands, bein bezron bein beshegegah, whether you did it by purpose or did it by accident, kshyaaseh teshuvah v’yashuv mecheto, when he repents when he does Teshuvah, chayav lehitodot lifanei hael baruch hu, he is obligated to confess what it is that he has done before the Almighty. Vidui zeh mitzvah taaseh, this act of Vidui, this confession is, in fact, a positive command. Then he goes and he talks about this. Exactly what is the language one uses to perform Vidui to confess in this way? He goes to find that language; but let's come back to first these three lines that we talked about before. Just listening to them, does it seem to you, like the Rambam, treats Tesuvah - the act of repentance - as a Mitzvah Mitorah.
So on the one hand, the Rambam certainly defines something here as a Mitzvah, right? The interesting thing is though, that he doesn't actually define Teshuvah itself as a Mitzvah. He defines an element of Teshuvah as a Mitzvah, and that element is called Vidui - Confession. Rambam is actually going to later set out the different elements of Teshuvah. There's azivat hachet, letting go of the sin; there's kabalah laatid, deciding you are not going to do it in the future; there's chartah, the 'feeling bad for what you've done'; and there's vidui, and there's confession. There's four different elements.
Strangely, the Rambam focuses on one of them, and says that one thing, Vidui, Confession is one of the 613 commandments.
So, it seems strange. Why is he doing that? Why is he picking out one element of Tesuvah and only one element of Tesuvah? And saying, that's the Mitzvah. What about all the other elements? What about Teshuvah as a whole? How do we make sense of this? So, I want to suggest a theory to you, and the theory is this.
Let's come back to the question I asked: Is Teshuvah a Mitzvah? And this time, instead of examining it from the perspective of the Rambam, let's just examine it from the perspective of logic. Rationally speaking, do you see any difficulty in the notion that one of the commandments in the Torah should be to repent, seek forgiveness, and change one's ways from one's wrong-doing?
So, on the one hand, you might say, "Sure! What a great Mitzvah; very spiritual, very wonderful." But I can raise an objection to that. Under what conditions would such a mitzvah apply? The act of Teshuvah, the act for repentance by definition, only takes place in the wake of a transgression. It takes place after you've disregarded one of the other Mitzvahs of the Torah.
Think about the word: Teshuvah literally means 'return'. Its the act of turning around; and if you are transgressing, you're going one direction away from the Torah's commands. Can there be a Mitzvah to turn around? Logically, it doesn't make sense that there could be. How can I command you to turn around? I can't command you to stop disregarding the command, so the notion that there's a Mitzvah to do teshuvah itself problematic. And, the Rambam never says there is such a Mitzvah.
The theory I want to suggest to you is: that Teshuvah actually a choice! It's a choice that we make, it can't be commanded. It's something you just have to decide you want to do. What the Rambam is saying is, if you decide you want to engage in an act of Teshuvah, at that point, the Torah defines for you a right way of doing Teshuvah, and a wrong way of doing Teshuvah. The Mitzvah is: if you're going to do Teshuvah, do it the right way. And the Rambam says, "What does doing it the right way mean? It means, including Vidui, Confession."
Why does the Rambam say that, that one piece of Teshuvah is the Mitzvah? Why not any of the other pieces of Teshuvah? That is a very interesting question, and that will require us to take a deeper look at the four elements of Teshuvah, and Vidui's place within them. When we do this, I think we're going to discover that laws of Teshuvah are not technicalities that get in the way of our inner emotional experience; but they are beacons that help guide us in the productive path, to transform some of our most important relationships.
Let's come back and take a look.
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